Monday, April 8, 2019


A moment of forgetfulness left me blind to the intimacy I was lacking.  I know my Father has not judged me because he knows I had to go through the exercise to better understand the intimacy I was wanting.

I cannot reveal what was really bothering me. I know.  But I can say my Father did not let me down, I just lost my way,

The other night a woman I barely know asked what will happen to my home and retirement if something goes wrong today. First the surgeon can do this blindfolded, so there is no going wrong.  Second what ever the outcome it is what my Father knows I need so it cannot be wrong  I said to this woman when she did not like my answer, "We are All my Father's Children."  Yes I have a biological father, but my Father is Father to all of his children of which I am one.

While my Father did not judge me for feeling I was lacking intimacy to help me through the day, I now know he has never stopped holding my hand.  How could I have forgotten?  Well I did because this disease we now know I have had since childhood and it only progressed.  So my question became, where was my Father during all of this time? I will tell you.  He was preparing me for this day and its greater meaning in my profound faith.

Never go a day without remembering the Lords Prayer

Matthew 6

Be not ye therefore like unto them: for your Father knoweth what things ye have need of, before ye ask him.
After this manner therefore pray ye: Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name.
10 Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven.
11 Give us this day our daily bread.
12 And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors.
13 And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen.
14 For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:
15 But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
I know Father why I am on this journey.  It has given me the vision of love and compassion.  Every second of this journey has made me more aware of Your children.

Guys this is not about complacency, it is about knowing our Father provides for every step in our journey and in that journey we are rewarded so long as we remember "Our Father."

Judgment is not speaking out against those who serve themselves instead of our Father's family, it is demeaning our Father's children to justify being self serving.

I am fine guys because my Father holds my hand and I am grateful to know whereever he takes me on this journey, it will have everythiing I need and dispair is just a lacking of faith

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