Monday, July 3, 2017



TO MY PARENTS AND ALL OF THE AMAZING PEOPLE WHO HAVE BLESSED ME WITH THEIR PRESENCE BEFORE PASSING

When I am having a hard time, my faith is everything.  I know my parents and an endless number of people who blessed me with their presence are with me 24/7.  Since getting home from the VA the headache has gotten worse and worse.  I slept until 7 when I heard my roommate cooking.  I got up to refry what turned out to be my best beans ever.  I finally got the mixture of chipotle and comino perfect.  My roommate just kept on eating them.

I ate a bit, but the headache just got worse when I got out of bed.  Today was the single worse day.  The only reason I am not asking my roommate to take me to McAllen Medical Center is on Wednesday the VA is doing a more advanced MRI of the lumbar and brain, and they found me a new neurosurgen I will see a week from Thursday.  Until the surgery there is nothing they can do.

Pain killers do nothing for me.

So I got up to look for this song.  I know my parents will guide me and give me strength to get to next week.  When I am awake I am crying in pain.  Something has changed.  I'm just crying in horrible pain.  I am waiting on the tea to kick in so I can at least sleep.

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