Monday, May 9, 2016


Psalm 23King James Version (KJV)

23 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

Well I woke up about 4:30 a.m. After three days of cognition fog and the medication not working I knew I was about to go into a 2-3 day period of no sleep.  Last night I took an extra pill which the VA uses to help me sleep.  They use it for its side effect.  I had really hoped to get a good 7 hours.  Well I tossed and turned from 10 until just after midnight as the medication never kicked in.

I woke up suffocating.  You see sleep apnea is not just about the number of events but the length of the event.  A long event can deprive the heart and brain of oxygen.  The CPAP does not matter - if the forced air does not get you breathing again fast enough your oxygen levels just keep on dropping.

Apnea is at its worst during your dream state.  I was having a prolonged stress dream when I realized I was suffocating.  It is odd but you know you are dreaming and why you are suffocating so you focus to wake up.

I also woke up with really painful diaphragmatic spasms.  I am waiting on that medication to kick in. My right lung will not fully expand until the spasms stop.

One reason the VB doctor wants me to go to MD Anderson is because the chest pain I describe is consistent with MS hug.  The last brain MRI indicates a need for an MS work-up.  I think it is true the last brain MRI and a host of symptoms indicate MS, but it is not MS.  The medicine the VA gives me to help me sleep is exactly what is prescribed to stop the MS hug, and I still wake up in the middle of the night with the same chest pain - or just get it while sitting at my desk.

Psalm 23 sits on my desk to remind me every morning where to look for guidance and strength.  The legal system is beyond broken.  My brother is being held hostage in a cesspool of a nursing home until I agree to sign away his money to lawyers, judges, and his step children - none of whom have a right to any of it.  By law it is all his.  I have nut job judges saying a federal finding my brother is cognitively impaired is not enforceable in state court or binding on the state of Texas.  The lawsuit against Texas to enforce the federal order is nearly ready.  It is a lot of work.  Y have to decide to file it in Austin or DC

If I just sign away his money I might be allowed to move him to Houston to be under the care of a Dr. Slopis in Houston.  If I do not sign away the money he dies in a cesspool of a nursing home which killed his wife through neglect. He needs the money for the move and the high dollar nursing home.  I fought tooth and nail to get his wife the care she needed, but failed because I was not the one with the POA over her.  They just refused the proper care to treat edema in a geriatric patient.

So knowing God is with all of his children I do the right thing and finish the federal lawsuit.  Texas knows it is coming.  They know I have the documentation from the Office of Court Administration that the fraud against wealthy seniors in nursing homes is in the millions.  Texas will argue that federal courts have no jurisdiction to compel Texas to comply with federal findings.  Texas will argue the right to defend yourself has been abolished in Texas once you have dementia.  My brother has no right to his money or the right to hire an attorney to protect his interests.  So  far I have protected all of his money.  We are in limbo as these nut job judges fight to uphold their findings my brother has no right to appear in court through counsel to protect his own money and seek the medical attention he needs.

It is so bad the nursing home cannot provide him any proper medical treatment because he cannot make his own decisions and there is no one appointed to make decisions for him.  The family is locked out.  My brother cannot tell us what he needs or understand who we are.  The nursing home tells us we have no right to know.  At this point no one does except the lawyers running up the bill.  The lawyers are doing nothing to get him medical attention.

Texas law clearly says that once someone needs a guardian the court looks to the spouse and then family.  It clearly says a professional guardian can only be appointed if family refuses to act as the guardian.  The courts are clear - there is no place for the law in East Texas.  The lawyers running up the bill are arguing that the law does not allow for family to act as guardians.  The law is black and white.  No professional guardians will accept an appointment because they are all under investigation for practicing as guardians while not being properly registered.  They also know they cannot accept a guardianship so long as the family is seeking guardianship. So my brother remains in limbo dying a painful death from brain lesions while the lawyers wait for him to pass so they can jump on the money or I release the money with no guarantee they will let me move him to Houston to be with his children and under the care of Dr. Slopis.

The National Chamber of Commerce according to the WSJ found East Texas to be the most corrupt judicial region in the entire United States.  Yes, they beat out the LRGV

And yes, they are all Anglo Republicans taking away the rights of the disabled so their lawyer friends can become rich off of the money of seniors in nursing homes.

Texas must abolish the Commission on Judicial Conduct, State Bar, and engage in major judicial reform.  It will not because there is too much money being stolen to keep the lawyers going and the judges pockets lined with extra cash.  Remember Abel Limas got a slap on the hand from the Commission on Judicial Conduct for the same acts which landed him in federal prison.

So I end with, "The Lord is my Shepard ..." it may not sound like much, but without my faith I have nothing to sustain me.

Where this will end I do not know beyond my faith tells me it will end where God needs it to end for some greater good.

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